Off on Journey to the past..
Mamlaktii ..
Been a while now since I last laughed from the heart .. I’ve acquired this fake yellowish smile from a lot of people around me.. the smile that you draw upon your face when you say “ Good morning ” to your boss and you’re thinking ..bloodsucking bastard !! , the smile you give to people you don’t even like and say have a nice day when you’re not really wishing them a nice day .. and the same smile you give to everyone asking how are you doing ..and you say I’m FINE , when fine really means : Freaked out , Insecure, Neurotic and emotional .. knowing that they won’t stick around to hear the answer .. so you spare yourself the explanation .. and spare them the extra time they have to spend showing empathy..
Been a while now since I last laughed from the heart .. I’ve acquired this fake yellowish smile from a lot of people around me.. the smile that you draw upon your face when you say “ Good morning ” to your boss and you’re thinking ..bloodsucking bastard !! , the smile you give to people you don’t even like and say have a nice day when you’re not really wishing them a nice day .. and the same smile you give to everyone asking how are you doing ..and you say I’m FINE , when fine really means : Freaked out , Insecure, Neurotic and emotional .. knowing that they won’t stick around to hear the answer .. so you spare yourself the explanation .. and spare them the extra time they have to spend showing empathy..
So yeah.. that hypocrite smile people refer to nowadays as social intelligence , that I need to wipe off my face.. I need to get my oh so beautiful smile back.. look for it .. and fight , time , the oh so clever enemy who has slipped it away from me.. and fight the world if I have to ..
And that needs a journey to the past.. a journey back in time .. to find out what really happened to my smile.. and not only come back with it.. but also come back with a lifetime supply ..
Wish Me Luck , Strength and sense of humor .. Reemus , A.Z
Thursday, October 08, 2009 | | 6 Comments
This I promise you ..
To the future king of Reemania ..
This I promise you ..
I promise that I’ll take good care of your heart ..
I promise that I’ll cut out mine and give it to you as a spare..
I promise that I’ll be your cheerleader and witness to life..
I promise that I’ll be a fool for you .. and I’ll be your clown whenever ur down..I’ll sing.. danse.. jump.. whatever it takes..
I promise that I’ll put you and your needs before myself..
I promise I’ll be your home.. your shelter and in my arms you’ll find you haven..
I promise that I’ll be there for you now.. when you wake up in the morning .. forever and the life after..
I promise you that whenever when life gets crazy.. we’ll go crazier..
I promise that I’ll love you with every beat of my heart..
And I promise that I’m gonna danse with you until our lives come to end ..
This is the vow that I took upon myself..and I promise to keep .. honor and cherish..
This I promise you ..
I promise that I’ll take good care of your heart ..
I promise that I’ll cut out mine and give it to you as a spare..
I promise that I’ll be your cheerleader and witness to life..
I promise that I’ll be a fool for you .. and I’ll be your clown whenever ur down..I’ll sing.. danse.. jump.. whatever it takes..
I promise that I’ll put you and your needs before myself..
I promise I’ll be your home.. your shelter and in my arms you’ll find you haven..
I promise that I’ll be there for you now.. when you wake up in the morning .. forever and the life after..
I promise you that whenever when life gets crazy.. we’ll go crazier..
I promise that I’ll love you with every beat of my heart..
And I promise that I’m gonna danse with you until our lives come to end ..
This is the vow that I took upon myself..and I promise to keep .. honor and cherish..
your Queen Reemus , A.Z
Friday, September 25, 2009 | | 4 Comments
Before I was Your Queen..
Mamlakti ,
Before I was crowned the Queen of my beloved kingdom.. back when I were a princess .. I traveled outside the walls of Reemania .. exploring the world .. I wanted to discover the opportunities.. I went out on a journey hoping to find happiness.. thrill .. meanings.. and I ended up finding myself .. which turned out to be the most rewarding thing that happened to me.. I applied for a job at a very small company.. hoping I could start out a career there .. I met new types of people .. I met the selfless hardworker .. who wants nothing of this life but provide his family with every single pound he earned , I met the ego-driven man.. whose entire world lies between his eyes and the the bottom edge of his nose.. I met the sweet and down to earth musicican..I met the really sneaky bargainer .. and I met the extra-ordinary gentleman.. who managed to bright up my days .. and bring me to smile when times got so dark and life was just not giving me a break.
Before I was crowned the Queen of my beloved kingdom.. back when I were a princess .. I traveled outside the walls of Reemania .. exploring the world .. I wanted to discover the opportunities.. I went out on a journey hoping to find happiness.. thrill .. meanings.. and I ended up finding myself .. which turned out to be the most rewarding thing that happened to me.. I applied for a job at a very small company.. hoping I could start out a career there .. I met new types of people .. I met the selfless hardworker .. who wants nothing of this life but provide his family with every single pound he earned , I met the ego-driven man.. whose entire world lies between his eyes and the the bottom edge of his nose.. I met the sweet and down to earth musicican..I met the really sneaky bargainer .. and I met the extra-ordinary gentleman.. who managed to bright up my days .. and bring me to smile when times got so dark and life was just not giving me a break.
I worked in the morning and the afternoons.. and I tutored English to 2nd and 3rd graders at night.. in which I found life to be really worth living for.. I found my happiness in the eyes of these little monkeys.. who drove me nuts.. and whom I spend most of the lessons.. yelling at them for wetting their clothes and spending lots of time in the bathroom.. I fell in love with little Ali.. who was the brightest of my students.. he had the sweetest dimple on his small cheek.. and the most amazing look anybody has ever looked at me…this look when you know you have taught this person something that will leave a mark on his life… and that look that we used to give our teachers in the past.. the teachers we looked up to the most and changed our lives.. I was Miss Reem..
Time's passed and I reached this point where I'm not learning anything new at work , and the point where you think " there's gotta be more " , and Miss Reem felt like there's alot to learn .. there's a bigger world out there that needs me to unveil it .. but ..
My Godmother got very sick , and things of that sort , well , they kill me , I found myself freezing , because that's what I used to do best when I was scared to death , I put mylife , my plans and my everything on hold for their sake . She got better by time and that I'm thankful to God for . As for me and my frozen life .. I was such a mess .. My music was out of tone .. I lost my edge at work .. I forgot myself and worst of all .. I got comfortable there ..
I don't recall when was the time that I sobered up .. but I knew that things don't work this way .. you don't fall and expect the ground to bounce you back on your feet , I had to stop relating my happiness to someone else’s existence.. I had to stop doing that.. I had to get myself back..enough with the pathetic and weak person.. because I was never like that.. I was an unstoppable ball of fire. People used to come to me to feel good about their lives.. and themselves .. I was a cheerleader..
I decided to look after myself.. and build up a career.. maybe then Karma would cut me a slack .. I found that there’s no future for me there at the small company that was called IKD .. and there’s no where to go from there.. so I packed my things and joined Vodafone’s forces..
I’ve decided to standup for myself for a change.. disable the freezing option.. and take my life to a whole new level.. I will find my happiness in each and everything I do.. I will be my own happiness.. I will dream and make these dreams come true.. I’ll be my own guarding angel.. and I will no longer let bad things get to me.. I will not let anyone cross a line with me.. and I definitely will not surrender to the Slaps.. the disappointments life pours at me.. I will fight back fiercely and with an open heart and a Winners smile on my face saying to life “ Bring it ON ” ..
I came back and fought for a chance to rule this kingdom… I asked life for a chance to make it right.. to pass on the wisdom to the people and I was granted my chance.. I was given the opportunity.. and I want you to know that it is up to you only to make your life a living hell.. or make it a beautiful place..
So here I am .. Standing here today 23 years young.. and 6o years Wise .. let’s hold hands and change the course of life !
Your Queen , Reemus R.Z
Thursday, August 20, 2009 | | 2 Comments
Dear Kingdom,
This is my first letter to you .. a letter that I have longed to write the moment I took over the kingdom of Reemania .. my own kingdom .. a kingdom where everything is possible .. where dreams do come true .. kingdom of everlasting Beauty .. Honesty and Strength .
Looking back at the history of Reemania .. it has gone through battles and wars .. it has lost some battles and was damaged for an amount of time .. but never has it failed to lose its’ identity and give up on its values .. the values that made it able to stand out through dark times .. and the very same values that is because of , I’m Standing here today .. At the top of my lungs .. telling you that We are ready to take on Life.. with all of its possibilities .. ready for the unknown with all the right weapons.. and ready for a new age .. of Welfare .. development and
Unbreakable Will ..
Enough with the Words now .. Let’s Get Into Action .. Let’s Add values to our lives and let’s make of this place “ Heaven on Earth “
To Beauty .. Honesty .. and Strength ..
Your Queen , Reemus A.Z
Thursday, August 20, 2009 | | 1 Comments
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